The clouds have come back. Cold, dreary, and touched with rain. The first couple weeks were like a dream of sunshine and flowers. It's hard not to be cheerful in such a fabulous setting.
But there was a glitch in all this dazzling glory. A loss. A heavy loss.
There are some people in this life that are just so...alive...
When my dear friend Becky was called away to Heavenly business, it was unthinkable. She was always one of the most alive people I knew. Even in the years when our lives were far apart, I knew she was out there, living, bringing joy to people by her presence. For her to no longer exist in this plane of existence felt so wrong. How could days be bright and cheerful when she was not there to breathe beauty into it somewhere. I still miss her, still haunt her Facebook page on occasion and send her messages, even though I know there will never be a response. I can only be grateful that for the last three years of her life we were in contact again, that the flame of her existence was fully realized in my world again so that when she left us, she was close to me, even planning to come to my wedding.
On May first, I receive shocking news. Another bright life had gone away. A former student of mine left this world without an explanation. He simply departed, taking with him a joy filled smile and a zest for life that always shone from his eyes. Unlike Becky, we hadn't spoken in more than a year. Like so many others, he seemed to have faded from my general sphere of connection, but I still knew he was out there, even saw him briefly last time I was in Czech. Regardless, I will never forget his smile, his open sincerity, the way he livd deeply. His loss has struck me in a way I can't fully explain, and don't want to talk about.
There are things in life we will never know or understand. When faced with the harsh realities of life and death sometimes the only thing to do is look at the sunny day and remember joy. We all have choices in this life. I hope that when people remember me, they will remember one who lived.